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Come to Jesus Talk

January 25, 2012

Several years ago one of my best friends in college told me he needed to have a “Come to Jesus talk.”  I had never heard the term before.  For those of you who were like me, it basically means someone lays down the truth to you, perhaps truth, that you didn’t really want to hear.  The thing is, it’s something you NEED to hear.

The man had this type of talk with me this weekend.  I still think he handled the beginning of the conversation a little ham-fistedly, but end of the conversation was good.  It was painful, but good.

I’ve been saying I need to lose weight for three and half years and I haven’t done it.  All I’ve done is gain it.  When I lost weight several years ago it was after a health scare and ten days in the hosptial.  After I gained it back, that scare wasn’t as fresh.  And while I wanted to get healthier, in a way I already was.  Even when I was at my lowest weight I didn’t do triathlons, I didn’t run a half-marathon.  I didn’t even run at all.  So it seemed that really, honestly, the motivation was just to be skinny again.  And we all know that’s not the best motivation.  When pregnant ladies would talk about being healthy for their baby, I was jealous.  They had a reason.  A REAL reason that was more than just superficial, like getting skinnier or running faster.

This weekend the man gave me that reason.  I am not the same person I was when we met.  I’m just not as vibrant and confident.  And my mental health is important.  And my mental health effects our relationship.  My reason to lose weight is my relationship.  He loves me know matter what I look like, but he believes that to find that old me.  That me that wanted to have fun, that was confident, that laughed more than she sat quietly to the side I need to lose the weight.  He shouldn’t be right, but he is.  It isn’t PC to be unhappy and depressed and LESS of a person than I was just because I weigh more, but that’s how it is.  I might be able to run further, do more, I don’t FEEL like me, so I don’t act like me.  I’m not me.

I have to lose weight to find me.  I have to find me to make our relationship work.  If that’s not motivation, I don’t know what is.

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What 10 days of Lazy Wrought

September 24, 2011

As I said in my last post, I took ten days off of running and swimming for no good reason and filled my body with junk food.

This week, I got back in the swing of things, some what.  No pool yet, but I ran 4 times.  And I still had some junk, but less of it, more home cooked, whole foods and I tracked it all.

I saw the scale move some. In the right direction for the first time since July.

But the really important thing is how I felt.  While I could tell I had taken some time off, it wasn’t as bad as I had thought.  My runs slowed a little and my long run was just average today, though that might have had to do with a bit of dehydration and a pace that was a little too fast thanks to my running partner.

But overall, I felt good that I was able to take some time off and then get back into things without really feeling it.  It was there in subtle ways, but overall… I feel like I have the body of an athelete. Not in appearance obviously, but in ability.  I can keep up my athletic endeavors even if the old nonathletic me rears her head from time to time.  I am slow.  I am fat.  But I am an athelte.

Which reminds me I really need to do my review of the Slow, Fat, Triathlete books.

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What a difference a week makes

September 18, 2011

Last Saturday I had my longest run ever.  6.27 miles in a hour and 40 minutes.  Yes.  That’s SUPER SLOW.  I don’t give a shit.  It was awesome.  My hip bothered me for about a minute halfway through, but I ran through it and it went away.  I think I’m going to have to add a bike ride in to my cross-training, as I don’t seem to have a problem with it when I’m doing tri training.  The bike just strengthens it or stretches it, or both in just the right way.

So I had an awesome run.  Felt great.  sunday night I got my training email for half group and was pysched to see we were doing speed work on Wed. I actually uttered the words “I like speed work.”  And somehow come Monday – I lost the feeling.  I didn’t workout this week at all.  I did yoga.  And finished 100 consecutive days! That will have to be its own  post.  So other than some light yoga nothing.  I skipped my solo runs, skipped speedwork, avoided the poll and didn’t touch weights or the cable machine once.  I also ate junk, junk, junk.  Oh and some more junk.

It’s as if I was a different person.  Or my old person.   In the past it was the norm to eat processed crap more than not, to go home after work and just collapse for the evening.

I know I like working out.  I know I like racing.  I know I like the way I feel when I eat healthy.  But I backslide.  And this week was one of the worst backslides in a long, long time.

But I have hope for this coming week.  One step back must be followed with two steps forward.  Or at least one step forward.

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Race Recap: Zoo Zoom 5K

August 27, 2011

Baton Rouge Zoo Zoom 5K – 8:15am August 27, 2011

I had high hopes for this race.  Specifically I had hopes for a PR.  Since my last 5K I have done two Super Sprint Triathlons and six weeks of speed work training.  At the beginning of the month I did a 2 miler and set a nice new pace that I was sure I could have kept up for 1.1 more miles.

During the not fun at all triathlon last weekend, even with all the walking I had a good (for me) pace that I was proud of.  So I was just sure that today I could handle a new PR.  I wasn’t even looking for much.  Just shaving a few seconds off my best 5K pace.

But for some reason I just couldn’t do it.  I think a lot of little things added up. I tied my shoe too tightly, so I had ankle pain and I had to stop to retie. I was slightly dehydrated and then drank too much before the race started and in the beginning to try and make up for it.  I didn’t have my normal pre-prace breakfast.  None of these were huge things, but perhaps the combination of them just eroded my ability, or my perception of my ability.  I was on a good pace for the first mile, but things just seemed to go down hill after that. I didn’t really feel like I had slowed down or walked more than in the first mile, but apparently I did.

Still my mood was over all good.  I wasn’t the second to last over the finish line even if I was a back of the packer.  Early in the race I had picked out certain people to make sure I beat (am I the only person who does that?) and I beat them.  It was hot, but most of the route was shaded.  Running through the zoo was just fun, if extra smelly at times.  And I got animal crackers at the end.

I’m thinking my two biggest hurdles are thus: 1) Weight.  I weigh about 20 or so pounds more than two years ago when I ran my first 5K, but I put in a lot more work and I’m running around the same pace.  If I could just lose some weight I would automatically get faster.  2) I am not a morning runner.  95% (if not more) of races are run in the morning.  I think my body is generally like: “Wait.  Why exactly are we doing this instead of sleeping?”

The answer to the first: Get serious about eating whole, healthy foods and not sugar.  Do some kickass strength training.

The answer to the second: Well I’ll be running every Saturday morning from now through December 3.  Hopefully that will be enough and if it’s not… *Gulp* Early morning, pre-work runs? *Shudder*

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Back to the past

May 10, 2011

Yesterday I went to strength training class for the first time in about two months.  Today I am feeling it.  Ouch.  A certain reminder of what I have lost by not strength training for months.  Tomorrow I’m going back, but there is a new instructor.  I’m excited and nervous.  Yesterday’s class was familiar, the same moves that we did two months ago.  Tomorrow I don’t know what to expect.

Today I did yoga for the first time in six months?  Sure I do some stretches here and there.  (Hello forward bends and twists!)  But have I been in ANY warrior pose? Not so much.  Chair pose?  Hell no.  I think I actually heard my hips screaming during triangle pose.  It was hard, but I pushed through.  Because I need it.  I’m hoping to be able to fit in some classes at the studio soon, but even if I can’t – I have to yoga at home.  I have DVD’s, podcasts, free streaming classes on the Blueray player, cheap downloands there is NO reason I can’t make time for yoga at least twice a week.

For a long time I’ve felt yoga is actually the key to my weightloss.  When I first lost all my weight I was going regularly.  When I was keeping off my weight (and not doing nearly as much cardio or calorie counting) I was going 3-4 times a week.  In the past year when I finally broke back down into the 100’s, I was going to the studio and running.  For 4 months I ran, swam, and biked and never got back under 200.  Is the difference the yoga?  I’m thinking maybe so.  In any case, we’ll soon see.